Lately

I don't know anymore honestly because, I have all these friends, but I feel so unmotivated anymore to do anything. Because lately everything I've tried REALLY hard at, to get a big part, to go out of my comfort area, and dress like a girl, to show I CAN PLAY GIRL PARTS. To show that I can do this, I can be there, ect. Just seems to be smacked back into my face, like it is nothing, so I've been giving up. Saying A Big F-U to theater and speech, because it seems like all this hard work, all this research and everything I do, Is absolute crap, and I don't get rewarded for it...And then when I say anything, I get called a 'complainer'. What is that crap? Of course I am going to complain, I work so hard, only to get shit, nothing at all, Here is the prize, and I get tossed the bone. And I am so tired of it, I am so unmotivated because there is no motivation there, How can I be motiviated if I'm being ignored. I dislike kids saying 'I want this part' And getting it, It seems really fishy.


Theres rumors everywhere, so why not let us confront them? Hrm?

The next plays actors are already chosen.

The part of Pauk Is all ready taken, set in the bag for one certain person.

Many of the seasonal actors and actresses are not audtioning because thier tired of things.

I am pregnant? (Really people just WOW!)

Jas is a lesbain. (LMAO!!)

There are more than 20 girls pregnant...(that one would not surpise me)

Really, I am just tired of it all, Spring play? Who knows if I will go out, Why if the rumors are true?....I feel like I am being lied to by everyone, so here it is my PUBLIC annocement that I am jsut so freaking DONE with this c-r-a-p! Maybe we will finnaly get some answers, Maybe not, But I got a lot of this off my chest, and that's the point of blogging right? So Kids can let out their feelings.


And a note to add, Mr. Grey and Mrs. Fisher, were great today at the dance thing, Thier becoming some of my fav teachers, along with Mr. Nelson, I think its because they don't act like high schoolers, but our teachers. But you can still sit down with them and tell them what is up with you, you can still tell them how you feel and they will be the teachers there for you. They won't go back and talk to other people about what you say, They will keep it to themselves, and ne your Teacher/friend. Not your Teacher/highschooler....Not to mention they Honestly are devoted to teaching us, they care for us, and want us to better ourselves in our lives. Grey inspires me every day with how he works out the class problems in our Team sports, there are a lot of race Issuse there. And Fisher cracks me up every day with how crazy funny she is in arobics. And Nelson, Well I think it is great that when ever he sees me he goes "Brooklynn" and I go "Nelson." Even on my worst of days it always brings a smile to my face....He is so devoted to his work, and the world, It is crazy...


but I guess thats my blog for today, I feel a lot better, letting off this stuff, Letting my feelings out Ect....

"You wrote me a note last year, I stilll keep it in my bag to remind myself of how close we used to be, How much I used to look up to you...And how much you've seemed to change...but I guess thats life we all change...But at least I'll always have this note.." -Day Brightener..